of surprise parties and despedida dinners

the same day that we were preparing for a surprise party for candice (a new cdg member), i learned that one my closest friends in cdg (and my gym buddy) will be leaving.

when she told me her reasons and how she really didnt want to go, i didnt know how to react.
i was trying to divert the conversation to other topics, -- her plans, jobs, gym, or to things totally not related---and i dont know if it came to a point that it semed that i didnt really care that much. but maybe the real reason is that i can't bear to face the fear that is growing inside me, -- the fear of losing the people that matters so much to me..

Not so long ago.. i was so happy with cdg friends, we go out a lot, bonding moments, chikahan , coffee, out of town, star city, playing groupies.. then slowly, some of them had to go-- ces, dodi, jobeelita, bheng , dan, inggy, bridge..

those of us left had to start over and build new relationships.. then just as we were getting comfortable , thay also have to leave .. a couple of weeks ago , dian had to leave, sayang coz i know that given more time , we couldve been real close friends-- :)

now there's leni. her leaving was a wake up call for me. i know that yes, of course, we'll see each other again, lots of times, but it will never be the same as being with each other everyday, gym-ing b4 office, dieting to no avail, chikahan about people we don't really know, exclaiming "yuuuuuuuuuck!" together... i realized then that i should cherish every moment with people i love coz i don't know if tomorrow, i'll still have the chance to be with them as often as i like.



It’s time to say goodbye
to all the things we used to do now
It’s time to say goodbye
to all the friends we used to see now
Even though I know that this is really not the end
Time to say goodbye