regrets
sige na nga. yes im posting this entry because i just can't help it.
I WANT TO VENT OUT!!! AAAAAAARGHHHH!
yesterday was a day full of complications.
i felt so happy, then confused, then simply irritated. then happy again. then i remembered that i was supposed to feel like shit , so i did. and yes until now i have a hang over. ugh.
something unexpected happened. something that i've been waiting for for so so long..(more than a week? na nga yata.) even if i convince myself that i'm okay , well i am, there's still this little nagging thought at the back of my mind wishing...hoping... and then there it was. a sign that maybe, just maybe there's still a chance. i didnt know what to do so i reacted in the stupidest way i know how. and then it was gone...
now i'm still inis at the thought that i am again affected. i don't want to remember, i don't want to think, i dont want to feel. kainis because i am still doing all of that.
sana lang bukas i'll forget na, sana i'll stop thinking about it (him?) , sana i'll stop feeling. period.
sana...
*** ON A LIGHTER NOTE-- here's one bright spot of my yesterday...
"Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Syang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating sayo..."
I WANT TO VENT OUT!!! AAAAAAARGHHHH!
yesterday was a day full of complications.
i felt so happy, then confused, then simply irritated. then happy again. then i remembered that i was supposed to feel like shit , so i did. and yes until now i have a hang over. ugh.
something unexpected happened. something that i've been waiting for for so so long..(more than a week? na nga yata.) even if i convince myself that i'm okay , well i am, there's still this little nagging thought at the back of my mind wishing...hoping... and then there it was. a sign that maybe, just maybe there's still a chance. i didnt know what to do so i reacted in the stupidest way i know how. and then it was gone...
now i'm still inis at the thought that i am again affected. i don't want to remember, i don't want to think, i dont want to feel. kainis because i am still doing all of that.
sana lang bukas i'll forget na, sana i'll stop thinking about it (him?) , sana i'll stop feeling. period.
sana...
*** ON A LIGHTER NOTE-- here's one bright spot of my yesterday...
"Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Syang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating sayo..."
Anong nangyari?! Eto ba yung time na nag-margaritas ka din? Hehe. Chumika!
ReplyDeletehi karra! true the same night, hay naku pag-ibig..haha! i chika ko sau one time, sana by then positive na mga pangyayari--haaay! :)
ReplyDeleteito'y darating sayo! : )
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